awkward x rase kalau ex-boyfriend kite dtg cr kite balik, sbb dye ckp dye rase mcm kite tgh rindu kat dye and nak ckp dgn dye.
eventhough dah lame x contact but tibe2 je dye dtg and tanye whether kite nak ckp ngn dye ke x.
lol.
and all of sudden, dye mntk pendapat psl his current girlfriend.
skt nye hati -.- tp sbr je la.. :D
he want to be friends with me again, and eventhough i hate him a lot(words can't express) tp i must admit, i really miss him.
i wanna talk with him.
i've turn into a stupid human just because of him.
so nak x nak, terime ja la offer tu..
he ask me to move on, and i told him i've tried but i can't.
then, he ask me to hate him OTL
i hate him a lot. really a lot but i can't lie to myself.
deep in my heart, i know i still love him.
i don't know how to move on, because i'm not someone who can move on easily.
if i can love someone else easily, i won't love changmin until now.
i've been changmin's fan for 7 years, and i'm still his biggest fan until now.
i'm the type of girl who's once i fall in love, i'll fall deeply.
so it is not easy for me to move on.
so, eventhough i know i'm hurting myself now, but i can't do anything.